Tuesday, 01 May 2012

• Holding on to what I'm feeling, Savoring this heart that's healing...

  Meeee!

  

  Today has been a million times better. :)

  It all started with a wonderful dream where I was at the pool and this really hot half black/half white guy started flirting with me. He was so cute. Too bad it was just a dream. Haha, not that it would have mattered any way.

  Then I went to take a 8:00am Macro test. I feel pretty good about it.

  Plussss, I got to wear sweats today! This is my first day this whole year that I've been able to wear sweats during the day, during the work-week. It was exciting, but hot haha. :)

  Then I chatted with a co-worker at work because I had to go get my water bottles that I had left the day before. I guess this doesn't really matter... but I still felt happy about it. Sometimes I just love Sharon haha.

  Then I came back and was talking to a friend from Australia for a while. And I studied and studied- Tort laws. Second test at three, but the testing center was backed up so I couldn't take it until three thirty. I think I did okay. Her tests are soo tricky.

  Came back and helped my roommate pack up some of her stuff into her car.

  I have plans to make Tuna helper with Jori and study. Then at midnight we'll go get free pancakes from the Union.

  Obviously, I'm putting off my exercise until the end of the week.

  Oh, and one last thing... I haven't talked to Spencer at all today. Yesterday I called him when I was about to start bawling and he was so apathetic that it made me mad instead of sad. He literally didn't say a thing after I told him that I felt like crying. :( Hello! That means I want you to baby me! Haha. But so I hung up on him after that, which I know is mean... whatever, and he never called me or texted me until later that night at 11:00 (I called him at 1:00). He texted me and was like, "I talked to your mom and sorry about your test." Really? You didn't have to talk to my mom. You could have just asked me what was wrong when I freaking told you I was about to cry. I just said "k" and he was like, "Well, since you aren't going to talk to me- I love you and goodnight." and I said, "K" and he replied, "I got you a brownie." and I just went to bed. Then today he waited until 2:00 when he is usually in the car on his way to work to call me. Really? You have all day yesterday to call me and then you have more than half the day to call me today and you wait until last minute? I ignored him. I'm going to continue to ignore him too. I obviously can't depend on him to help keep me emotionally stabalized. -_- Sometimes that boy drives me crazy.... crazier. o.O

  Another thing about today... and me I guess. I don't know how I feel about God. I've been considering my belief a lot more this semester. It seems that when I do feel like I believe and give serious time to 'talk' with God I have better days. I'm not sure if this is just because of my 'comfort' theory or something else. Either way I'll take it. Today I prayed before my Macro test and I seriously felt so much better about it.

  So, this is the bikini I got for my birthday. Obviously, I still need to lose weight. It's a work in progress, k?!

  

  Anyway, byyee!

  P.S. Thanks for the encouragement yesterday!

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